January 2010
4 posts
I abstain from the game
I have been told many times that the cause of my solitude is that I am not willing to “play the game.” ’The game,’ apparently, is this highly ridiculous form of modern courtship wherein one person acts disinterested in the other person so as to get their attention and interest. First of all, I have a hard time trusting a system as paradoxical as this one. Second of all,...
2009 word of the year: Stagnant
One of my friends posted this on Twitter and I completely agree. I feel like this year has been a stinking pool of stale water. Then, right when I think things are going to change, they change for the worse. I am drowning in a pool of my own failures. I cannot even manage to get help for these feelings because I fail so completely. Moreover, I am not even happy with the person that I am. I...
The Wave of Haze
A cloud. That is what this is; a cloud. This cloud starts as a light haze, as if someone burnt some toast. Gradually this haze darkens and becomes smoke. As it gets more dense, it begins to get darker. You lose sight of things around you, and solitude becomes inevitable. Even the ground below your feet fades away and you find yourself floating in an amorphous blob of grey. Right before you...