Help…

So I have tried to convince myself that I drink too much.  I do not believe that this is true.  I do believe, however, that I go out too often.  Let us take tonight as an example.  I left my house at 11pm and returned home at 2:30am.  In this time span I only had 4 drinks.  That is a drink almost every hour.  I do not think that this means that I drink too much.  However, when one considers that I was out the night prior from 9pm until 5am, they begin to see the true issue; I am out too often.

Thus, I am asking for the help of my friends.  I do not want to become one the of those people that doesn’t drink at all.  If you want to grab a drink around 8pm on one of my days off, I am perfectly fine having a cocktail and catching up.  In fact my friend Karolina and I do this once every two weeks or so.  However, if you want to go out and get shitty past midnight, I am going to ask that you do not call me.  I have a hard time saying ‘no’ and I really need help in this aspect.  I love all of you, but I can no longer stay up and drink myself stupid like I was able to in the past.  I need to get my life under control and this includes my social life.

I have always desired being included in things.  I went thought a period where I was a complete social outcast and didn’t belong anywhere I went.  Because of this period, I decided to only say yes to request from my peers to socialize.  Thus, every time a friend asked me if I wanted to go out, I said yes.  It was a way for me to feel that I was not being left out of life as a whole.

I believe that I am mature and sensible enough to realize that the friends that I have acquired care for me regardless of the number of times that I go out in a month.  I am surrounded by people that truly care about me and that is why I am asking for help.  I do not think that I can say no to some of the people in my life and I ask that you do not require me to.  The next time that you plan on going out for a night of frivolity, please do not invite me (as much as I would live to join).  I need to finish getting my life on track and nights of intoxication are not the way to do it.

Thank you for your help and I hope you all still care for me.  Have a great night…