Personal Legend, Where Are You?!

Yet again, a girl of my romantic interests is not available.  It seems to be inevitable.  I seem to have a sixth sense for women that happen to be in relationships.  In fact, I do not believe that one woman that I have asked out in the past year and a half was single.  While this little fact does astound me, I think I know why my love life has been failing so completely.

The odds of that many women randomly being in a relationship are slim to none.  The fact that I only find taken women in my life must be a sign.  It is a sign that I am not following my personal legend.  Those of us that have read ‘The Alchemist’ know that when a person is following their personal legend, the universe will conspire to assist them with their journey.  If one does not follow their personal legend, however, their path will seem difficult and tiresome as they will not have the assistance of the universe.

For the non-hippies that read this blog, here is the ‘rational’ explanation.  People are more receptive to individuals that are grounded and well-adjusted.  If you seem like you know what you want and how to get it, then people will generally be more open to helping you achieve it.  If you seem lost or unsure, others will be less likely to support you or your cause.  Obviously, without support, your life will seem more strenuous.

My current problem is that I have no idea what I want nor how to get it; essentially I do not know what my personal legend is.  In ‘The Alchemist,’ Santiago had the luxury of having his personal legend delivered to him in a dream.  Some of us, unfortunately, are not afforded this clarity and must search deeply within ourselves to discover what it is we truly want.  The issue at hand is that my search constantly turns up empty.  I know that I want to be in love.  I know that I want a companion to walk through life with.  However, I have no clue how to achieve these things.  Moreover, while most people desire or have passion for a specific career, I don’t.  I truly do not care what I do for the rest of my life as long as I have a loving woman to come home to after doing it.  I could happily be a garbage man if I were in love.  I have been created in such a way that the entirety of my satisfaction is dependent on a romantic relationship with another person.  I wish there was something else that dominated my hopes and dreams, but as of current, I have not found it.

All I know is that I hope my personal legend reveals itself soon as I am EXTREMELY tired of the constant rejection and struggle.