Ostentatious Sophism

breakthemonotony: hahahahaha This is fucking great!

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 12:00:22 -0800

hahahahaha

This is fucking great!

"Trying to get a drunk girl to finish is like trying to take a drunk girl home when she can’t..."

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 15:49:47 -0800

““Trying to get a drunk girl to finish is like trying to take a drunk girl home when she can’t remember where she lives. She’s like, ‘That’s not it, that’s not it, that’s not it.’””

- Julian McCullough

The (500)th day.

Sun, 07 Mar 2010 23:55:32 -0800

I watch films because they give me insight into myself and the people that I deal with. One of the films that I believe does this well is (500) Days of Summer. When I saw it for the first time, I felt emotionally connected to the main character Tom. I related to him because I had gone through heartbreak similar to his previously in my life. However, because of recent developments in my own life, I feel more connected to that character then ever before.

When I first saw the film, I knew right off the bat that I disliked Summer’s character. I couldn’t exactly pin-point the reason that I disliked her at first, but after many conversations with my friends, I discovered what it was. I dislike Summer Finn because she toyed with Tom’s heart. A few of my friends have argued that she wasn’t really that bad because she did warn him that she was not looking for anything serious. I personally don’t believe that this absolves her in the slightest. Yes, being honest and upfront is the best thing that you can do, but you must also ensure that your actions back-up that honesty; hers did not. Tom puts is best when he gets into a fight with Summer and she tries to say that they are just friends; “No. Don’t pull that with me. Don’t even try. This is not how you treat your friend. Kissing in the copy room, holding hands in IKEA, shower sex! Come on, friends my balls.” In fact right after she tells him that she is not looking for a serious relationship, she reaches out and holds his hand while walking through IKEA. Who does this?! Who tells someone that they do not want to be in a relationship and then starts acting like they are in a relationship? At that point in the film, Summer’s so called “warning” had lost all credibility and purpose.

Another argument that my friend Karolina originally made when she saw the film with me was that Tom was to blame as well, because he knew that Summer was not interested, yet continued relations with her anyway. While I do agree that it was bad judgment on his behalf, I believe that he is afforded a level of reprise because of his weakened resolve from being in love. When someone is in love, they become intoxicated with the promised of the future. Just as our judgment is compromised by the intoxication of alcohol and drugs, so is it from love. That being understood, the moral burden of prudence is then placed firmly upon the person that didn’t want the relationship to begin with. Seeing as they are the one with the more acute mental clarity, they should be the one expected to make the better decisions.

Thought Tom was severely emotionally hurt by Summer’s actions, he was able to open his eyes and see the situation for what it truly was. Once this realization was made, he was able to move past Summer and focus his attention on other things in his life. His ability to finally lose the illusion that Summer’s behavior was acceptable was what eventually set him free.

Confliction...

Sat, 06 Mar 2010 03:54:51 -0800

So I am currently conflicted as to whether I love or hate myself. I hate that I feel jealousy over things that I have no right to be jealous of. I hate that I feel rejected over simple things that some don’t consider to have meaning. I hate that I respond so emotionally to everything without being more rational.

I love that I am so devoted to people. I will never cheat, or be dishonest about my feelings. I love that I can read between the lines and will notice more then most. Little, subtle things that someone does speak volumes to me. I love that I am alive emotionally. It is great that I can feel so strongly about things and people.

For those of you playing the home game, all of the above things are conflicting ideas. I guess I am not sure whether I love or hate myself… I guess it depends on what time of the day it is…

Another Tat?

Sun, 28 Feb 2010 06:21:42 -0800

So I am thinking of investing in another tat. What do you think that I should get? I cannot get my current Buddha filled because Adam (my best friend that has the same tat) and I have to get them worked on at the same time. I was thinking some Asian (Japanese) symbols on my inner wrists; what do you think? Thanks!

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Sun, 28 Feb 2010 06:11:54 -0800

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Song of the day: “Everything You Want” by Vertical...

Sun, 28 Feb 2010 06:00:50 -0800

Song of the day: “Everything You Want” by Vertical Horizon

Somewhere there’s speaking
It’s already coming in
Oh and it’s rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you’re here and you don’t know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won’t return

[Chorus]
He’s everything you want
He’s everything you need
He’s everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why

You’re waiting for someone
To put you together
You’re waiting for someone to push you away
There’s always another wound to discover
There’s always something more you wish he’d say

[Chorus]

But you’ll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It’s only what you’re asking for
And you’ll be just fine
With all of your time
It’s only what you’re waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won’t return

[Chorus]
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don’t know why
And I don’t know why
Why
I don’t know

formspring.me

Mon, 22 Feb 2010 11:57:36 -0800

How do you feel about framework debates?

I <3 *good* framework debates. I would much rather be involved in a meta conversation about the art of debate as opposed to trying to prove that aliens will wipe out the planet if we pass a certain plan of political action, haha.

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Constructive self loathing?

Thu, 18 Feb 2010 23:31:01 -0800

If there is such a thing, I think I an experiencing it. I cannot say that I am depressed because I feel like my life is finally getting back on track. I do not feel abnormally sad or worthless, but I do feel a tid bit regretful. Lately, thoughts of the past have been swirling through my mind. What if I had performed better in High School? What if I had performed better in Middle School? Maybe I would have been allowed to stay in wrestling. Then maybe I would have never gained the weight that I did. One could argue that if I cared more about school in Middle School, I would not be overweight now. Maybe if I had been more disciplined during that time of my life, I would not have had to play catch-up at Douglas High and would have had more time for debate. For all I know that extra time could have made the difference and we would have broken at Nationals. I learned so very much from my experience with that AMAZING family of debaters, but I feel like I have let so many of them down. Worst of all, I am not sure I can repair my image with any of them.

I recently spent the evening with someone that I probably shouldn’t have. Yes alcohol was involved and judgment was compromised… mainly hers… Afterwords, I discovered that I am not the type of person that she would be proud to show-off and thus her attraction to me ends. I know that I should not allow this to bother me as it has, but I cannot help but agree with her. As horrible and seemingly shallow as it is, I would not date me either. I believe that I would make a great partner and thus deserve someone. I would be caring and kind. I would open doors and offer my jacket at the slightest sign of a shiver or goosebump. However, I do not feel that I should be with someone until I LOOK like I deserve them.

I know what you might be thinking, “If you are unhappy with the way that things are, then change them.” You’re right, that is what I intend to do. I have started working out to loose weight, I have just started a great job that will eventually allow me to finish my education, and I am determined to accomplish one major personal objective per year aside from work or school. Despite this new and fervent resolve, there are times that hearing someone talk about the lack of pride I instill in them hurts me. I know that they shouldn’t, but the 11 words that were typed felt like daggers of failure through my heart. Not because I disagree with the person, but because I feel that they are right. I cannot be mad at someone for saying the exact thing that I would in their situation, however, it doesn’t mean that it hurt any less. I guess the only think that I can do is take an example from one of Train’s new songs “Words” from their Save Me San Francisco album. I will leave you with the chorus of the song while I go running…

Words they’ll try to shake you
Don’t let them break you
Or stop your world from turning
When words keep you from feeling good
Use them as fire wood and let them burn

Quote of The Day

Thu, 18 Feb 2010 13:07:39 -0800

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative and creation, there is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents, meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now.”

—Goethe

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Wed, 17 Feb 2010 23:43:00 -0800

What do yo regret most in your life?

I regret not having more drive for somethings. For example, I regret not being more driven to do well in high school. My lack of discipline is something that plagues me everyday and I am constantly working to fight it and find ways to motivate myself. I regret that I have yet to master the art of discipline.

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Mon, 15 Feb 2010 23:07:00 -0800

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/TheSophist

P.S. - I would just like to point out that this is my 100th tumblr post! w00t!

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Mon, 15 Feb 2010 23:06:55 -0800

What is the role of government?

The role of a government is to serve it’s people. The government is nothing more then a tool used to moderate the execution of Locke’s Social Contract amongst the people of a community.

Meaning of life?

The meaning of life is to enjoy it! We are here for such a short time that all we can hope for is to spend the majority of that time with a smile on our face.

What’s your favorite position?

Wealthy? Ooohhh, did you mean sexually, haha? I prefer to change positions often durning sex, but I do really enjoy cow girl, x-pose, and backwards missionary. What about you?

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Awesome quote of the day:

Tue, 09 Feb 2010 11:10:50 -0800

“Out of all the millions and billions of people on this earth, I can’t believe that there’s not one person that would love you. I wish that very soon, that person gets in a car or on a bus and goes to a place where you’ll be, or if they’re far away, they get on a plane and come find you.”

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Sun, 07 Feb 2010 22:52:09 -0800

Ask me anything: http://formspring.me/TheSophist

formspring.me

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 22:51:52 -0800

What was the most interesting place you’ve traveled to?

I think that every place that you travel is interesting in it’s own right, but I definitely have had some favorites. My favorite city in the World is Paris. The city just felt alive and vibrant. I am pretty sure that I will live there someday!

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formspring.me

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 22:50:26 -0800

Would you rather be a zombie or a mummy?

Personally, I do not like either option. If I were going to be a member of the undead it would definitely be a vampire… just not like the gay/retarded ones from Twilight… fuck them…

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formspring.me

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 22:48:02 -0800

What did you hope to accomplish in 2009 but didn’t get around to doing?

I wanted to be working two jobs so I could save for school. However, at the end of 2009 I didn’t even have one job! Things seem to be looking up as I am doing a job that I enjoy and it will eventually allow me to go back to school and finish my degree.

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I abstain from the game

Tue, 12 Jan 2010 14:58:00 -0800

I have been told many times that the cause of my solitude is that I am not willing to “play the game.” ’The game,’ apparently, is this highly ridiculous form of modern courtship wherein one person acts disinterested in the other person so as to get their attention and interest. First of all, I have a hard time trusting a system as paradoxical as this one. Second of all, I dislike viewing courtship as a simple game. For someone like myself, love is not a game. I believe I was created to love someone. In my eyes, waking up in the morning and breathing is a choice that we all make. My motivation for making that choice is the possibility of love. If the devine (whomever you believe it to be) were to tell me that, starting tomorrow, I will never have a chance of falling in love again I would end my life in an instant. The value of this human life is directly relational to it’s ability to fall in love with another. Thus, when someone devalues love into something as trivial as a mere game, I take offense. It is like telling me that my life is nothing more then a game that can be won or lost, but there is still going to be a party in the end. I refuse to court in this way.

I will find someone that feels the same as I. This person will not be interested in the club-like flirting, nor the tests of devotion that women sometimes put men through. They will be more interested in befriending me and seeing if I can bring a smile to their face. They will feel elation over the realization that I am the first person that they want to talk to when they wake up in the morning. Most importantly, they will feel no greater satisfaction then when walking down the street holding my hand. I end with a quote that encompasses my view of love better then any one prior:

“Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and you find out you still care for that person”

Song of the moment:Satisfy by Vedera This song is about getting...

Tue, 12 Jan 2010 13:41:00 -0800

Song of the moment:
Satisfy by Vedera

This song is about getting over the bliss of love. We all know how it is, you constantly wonder if it’s possible to ever feel as happy as you were with that person. I think Tom Hank’s character in “Sleepless in Seattle” puts it best when he says:

Well, I’m gonna get out of bed every morning… breath in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won’t have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breath in and out… and, then after a while, I won’t have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while.

Anyway, here are the lyrics to the song:

“If there was a way to try and make it back
Back to where we started from
Could I find a way to try and make you stay?
Would I know what could be done?
[Chorus]
I don’t want to deny my heart it’s chance to feel
I don’t want to deny my soul something real

Is there anything left in this world
That will satisfy me?
Is there anything left in this world
That will satisfy you tonight?

We were sailing on
I could see the world below
Never thought of coming down
Expectations fell

It seemed as though our will
Was no match for the trouble found

[Chorus]

So take my hand, and I won’t look back
Though I’ve lived tossed along these waves
I will stay”